mixed emotions

Thank you for the wonderful comments on my last post. They truly helped me and I am doing better.

I find myself with some mixed emotions lately and I'll somewhat explain why. I've been on the phone a bit lately with a dear friend who has a family member going through an awful divorce right now. As she calls me to talk things out and explain situations I found myself getting frustrated- why is this family letting Satan attack them? How did it happen? Where did it start? My heart hurts for her and her family. It's truly a very sad situation and I wish I could fix it. I feel like I'm part of their family and find myself struggling with her emotionally. I want everyone to have a happily ever after. Well, right after one of my conversations with her, feeling a bit frustrated and rattled at how all this came about my mom calls me with the news that another friend had lost her husband to cancer the previous evening. I found myself grieving her loss but the emotions were so different. Theirs was a beautiful love story of a wife and husband who adored each other and were truly one. Only married a couple of years but so in love. I have followed her blog and it was very touching- the way she talked of her husband and took care of him through this whole process. Two different stories with very different emotions.
Love is so precious and so fragile.

I find myself texting my husband during the day, giving him a call, taking his hand in the car, look him in the eyes when i say "i love you", being a better listener, making more time for us, and all those wonderful things that I should do regardless.
Life is wonderful and hard. The things that bring us the greatest joys are the things we have to work the hardest at. Every day. And oh it's worth it!
If you ask me, I believe I have the best husband in the world. I will brag about him, lift him up, let him know he can accomplish anything, and be his biggest fan because I love him and he is everything I've wanted and I love our love story. It's not perfect and yet, it is. It's good :) We fit each other perfectly. Occasionally on this blog I will "brag" about our lives- not to puff us up or put anyone down, but simply because my family is my greatest joy and I am proud of our accomplishments and where we're going, what we're doing. and while I could go on and on about it all, I'm going to save that for a later date and go join my husband because it's time to just be us :)